I hate calling in tired...

Course, that's not really what I called in. I blamed it on the flu that's going around. How do you explain to your supervisor that despite sleeping from 10 to 6 without waking up, that you have absolutely no energy to even begin to think about brushing your teeth - let alone getting dressed for work.

Sheesh - I hate the fucking fatigue. I feel like I just swam 100 miles and then decided to go for an ultra-marathon afterwards.... Yet, I didn't do crap. And, what I hate the most is that I had a great day yesterday. Woke up great - had a great time teaching at the academy - stopped at the store for dinner stuffs - and then had a good night! No issues. Well, I did have a freaky bit of what I think was an allergic reaction...

We were watching Chuck (because we had DVR'd it to watch House first - gotta love tv!) and my stomach started itching... and itching and itching... and then my entire torso felt like it was being stung by a million ants at the same time... and then it went into my arms and I was literally dunked into a hot bath --- which I barely felt... after about 20 minutes in the tub it finally calmed down and I was able to sit without drawing blood by scratching myself. The only thing I could figure would be an allergic reaction to what I ate... but it was leftover meatloaf.

Seriously, what's wrong with that?!?!?! I took a benedryl last night with all my other meds and I was out. First I thought I was still just a little dopey this morning from all the meds but that was not it. I was wiped. I didn't even have the strength to pee. Thank goodness I don't have bladder control issues yet otherwise it would have been an even less prettier site...

I think this is one of the things I hate the most about this fucking disease. i know it's just a bad day and I'll wake up feeling great tomorrow. I'll get up and go to work and everybody will ask if I'm okay and I say I am... and I'll tell my supervisor that I just had a really rough day. Luckily my bosses understand ( as much as they can) about some of my "unseen" symptoms and they don't hold it too much against me... I just don't like letting the ohters at my office down by having to do my job when I'm not there... ya know? That pride thingy - it gets me in trouble!!!

Sigh - so I'm just laying back on the couch with the tv on, catching up on my latest book... and just want to be able to go to sleep for a few more hours. But, because I have slept most of the day my body just wants to be brain dead but not asleep right now... I guess since I'm letting it control me anyways today I'll just let it!....